Nonono

Am down with fever :(

Some random thoughts:

1) I feel old.

2) I feel bored.

3) I feel stressed.

4) I need money.

5) I need fun.

Lastly, I want a healthy me.

You could be happy

This blog's quite dead.

I won't remember about it if not for kekenut-sshi. Haha

Quitted my job so I'm pretty free nowadays.

Uni's starting in a bit more than 1 month,

and I confess that I'm actually scared of uni life.

Everything seems so... scary.

Furthermore, Mr Brain had rejected my phone calls thousands times

after the break from A Levels.

"HELLOOOO! You THERE??!!"

Got into NUS FASS by a stroke of luck.

I don't know if it's a blessing in disguise or actually a part of my path to hell.

But heck care.

I'll just take each step at a time.

Talked to kekenut-sshi over msn.

H2H talk, haha.

Makes me think about what happened these years.

Pro and con about JC: I got some friends, and lost some on the way.

Just life, isn't it?

You take some, and lose some.

That's how the world works.

It's just a pretty hard blow

when you realise that you aren't as worldly-wise as you think you are.

That night, I remembered alot of people.

Those who are destined to be passers-by of my life,

despite my hardest efforts to defy.

Those who wanted to stay in my life,

but I chased them away.

Regrets are still there but nothing can be undone, right?

You could be happy, and I won't know.

But you weren't happy, the day I watched you go.

Hold on to me... please.

Been busy with jobs these days.

A happy note: going Korea next month :D

Oh, and I just dyed my hair.

Okay, a confession to make.

I'm quite disappointed at a person's change.

Okay, not quite, but VERY.

I really thought that we could be friends forever.

But obviously, no.

I'll just let everything fade away, let you go.

Sometimes I wonder whether it's me who pushed you there.

If so, everything's my fault.

Or it was no one's fault in the first place.

You've found your faith, I should be happy about it.

Yea, I should, only if you didn't throw me away.

The nonchalant tone of my voice was just a mask.

I cared, but no, I won't let it show.

Thanks for being the greatest company during my jc days.

Knowing that I can always depend on you in times of difficulties,

giving you a call whenever i feel sad,

going out for fun when I feel lost and bored.

Holding on is not my style.

But all my friends, hold on to me... please.

GOOD OLD DAYS

Have abandoned this blog for a VERY long time.

Then why have I come back?

'cause I'm suddenly reminiscing the good old times.

To my surprise, those are actually JC days.

To think that that was the period of time I skipped school the most.

Maybe it's the company, teachers or just the campus.

Out in the real world working is so much boring and tedious.

Seems like school is actually a paradise, which shields the children from the cruelty of the outside world.

You know how we always write in GP essays "In this dog-eat-dog society blah blah blah",

but no one actually knew what those words meant.

Now, i guess we do.

Just a growing-up phase of life?

So that means I've grown up?

Nevertheless, i'm still glad that I've still gt close friends from JC :)

Wong, Cords and sishood :)

The people who turned me into a much happier person.

Under their influence, I've actually become more positive-minded.

Seeing the world through their eyes makes the world look so much simpler.

Haha That's a compliment :)

A shoutout to BESTIE: Don't be sad anymore! You deserve better, if you get what i mean :D

PISSED

Haven't slept a wink after clubbing.
Just one thing to declare,
I'm DAMN PISSED OFF AT THOSE TWO!

A night to remember

Abandoned this blog for damn long...

One thing to declare-- 'A's are OVER!
OMG OMG OMG OMG

Straightaway, on the day I officially finished my exams,

I had a stayover at buddy chua's hs with cordy, ting-jie and sishood.

It's DAMN FUN!! :)

Maybe cause it marks the end of our suffering as well. hehe

We reached buddy's hs early to prepare surprise for cordy and small pluto.

HEHE tricked em tt we're only gng at 8.

We had fun singing, omg the karoke system is just damn cool.

My buddy's hs is a K-box, neh, Chua-box. HAHA

Then we surprised ALL with a hidden cameo.
(except me, buddy, mins and bestie)

Mins stormed into the room with me,

but i just walk in, neh storm.Then the conflict began......

Mins quarelled with bestie and stormed off again.

I did wat I'm DAMN good at-- add oil to fire.

HAHA ALL OF EM WERE SCAMMED!

Then mins and buddy came in with e cake... AWW

We had fun partying the whole night!

OH and small pluto cried!

Ending the whole thing with a nice pic :)

Name: Evon
Date: 9/30/2009
Colorgenics Number: 42530167

You are always alert and keenly observant. You are not truly satisfied with your everyday status and you are seeking fresh avenues which can give you the opportunity to prove your worth. You feel that there are still many barriers that stand between you and recognition - but one by one you will overcome them. Your tenacity is your one good point - like an English Bulldog, once you take the bite, you will seldom let go.
You are looking for excitement and stimulation and you are ready to try anything - but be careful not to take too many risks.

Your involvements seldom measure up to your high emotional expectations and your 'needs' to be 'loved' and 'cared for' have in the past often led to extreme disappointment. But a change is in the wind - make a firm decision to start anew. Just 'think' it..and it will happen.
Presently, you are experiencing stress because of restriction on your independence. You need and seek respect from other people and it is essential that they appreciate you for yourself and not for what they would like you to be. You have your own beliefs and convictions and you would like to be respected for them. You are anxious to avail yourself of every opportunity that may come your way but nevertheless, come what may, you have the need to control your own destiny without imposed limitations or restrictions.

You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer - MOVE!

Smiles

Bad week.
But smiles are still on my face.
Plastered.

I need some support.
And someone who can look through my smile.

Just realised that I'm indeed a Leo.

When time remains still

Finished prelims and am rotting at home now.
Blogger account was spoiled a few months ago,
that's why it's damn stagnant.
haha

Life is boring like hell.

Study study study.

Oh yea, I'm totally into K-pop now. HAHA
Super Junior and Wondergirls!!
I'm an E.L.F and Wonderful :D
And my buddy chua likes em as well :D:D

I need to go out and take a break.
Anyone?

Turn away

Exams are OVERRRR!
And trust me, I'm going to flunk.

Met up with 403 clique for anda's b'dae,
had sakae buffet with viv.
All these in last week. haha

Looking forward to little potter with zilianers on thurs.
Hope nth will go wrong.
Like unable to get tix cause they are sold out.
haha

School's a bore, having so many useless breaks in between.
Have to get down to studying fast cause there's PRE-prelim.
How lame can that be?!
It's alr PRElim, but they still want PRE-PRElim.
But it's all for our own good, muahah

Tml's photo-taking day haha
oh and cords' with her CUTE bangs :)
Everybody was saying how cute she was, and she was like,
"HUH! I don't want cute!"
Yea, she wants to be pretty.
But sometimes, dreams are just dreams.
Ouch.
Haha jkjk, Cords' the prettiest ;D

XD XD XD
Sishood's been talking bout the 'XD' face.
Quite cute eh?
And lyndon's our co-CT.
hahas how cute is that!
Lyndon and Willie, perfect combo!

Hehe been blabbering on for so long.
Okay, need to get back to my SGC.
Evon's a girl who has yet to fully utilise her potential....
Even though she's feeling drained.

In memorial of Pop Icon

★★★★★★
R.I.P, M.J.

Totally addicted to jap dramas now.
YAMASHITA!!!

You keep me thinking.

★★★★★★
People change.
Accept it.

★★★★★★
Went studying with vivian today.
Never meet up for quite a long time. :D
Tmr with bestie, and wed's with vivian again :D
HAPPY MUGGING!

You know it's a funny thing how you expect people to compromise when you are not doing it in the first place.
I convinced myself that I had enough of it in the past,
and tried to shift the blame to others.

I find myself so repulsive now.

Let go.

★★★★★★
It's sad that people you know become people you knew.

Last camp in SA

★★★★★★
I've just returned from camp.
Energy-draining and can only catch 2 hrs of slp (5am to 7am)
Which also means that i spent my 5/6/09 fully awake.
I'm deadbeat now, still, I decided to blog. :D
Interact camp was really fun with the interact peeps.
Jokes and craps and cards were fun :D
Spent the whole night/morning scaring the hell out of the J1s
HaHa
Call me sadistic, but those shocked expressions were classic!
:D:D
And the movie, SHUTTER, wasn't that scary after all.
Managed to stay till the very end of my camp, and I'm proud of myself.
At least I didn't let my swollen, disgusting eyes get in the way.

Yujie and I lay on the grass and did some star-gazing. :D:D
It was damn nice, and I love the grass on the hockey field :)
Both of us were trying to differentiate stars from satellites
Haha, all thks to the BOF Goo jun-pyo.
Night in school can be very relaxing as well. :)

It's kinda sad that this camp's really gonna be the last second time we can come together as a CCA.
I'll definitely miss them alot.
They brought so many laughters to my life,
and of course, gossips as well HAHA
They are the best bunch of people in the CCA,
and I'm so glad I can be one of them :D

Going to try to do something the workshop taught me.
If you copy the words and enlarge them, this shows that you're my true friend LOL

Can you even look me in the eye?

★★★★★★

Frigging tired.
The workshop is -.-
There's still camp tml.
I'm really deadbeat.
Save me.
And my eyes are getting worse.


★★★★★★
Well, I couldn't tell you why she felt that way?
She felt it everyday and I couldn't help her
I just watched her make the same mistakes again

What's wrong, what's wrong now? Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs?

She wants to go home but nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside with no place to go
No place to go to dry her eyes
Broken inside

Open your eyes and look outside find the reasons why
You've been rejected
And now you can't find what you've left behind
Be strong, be strong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs?

She wants to go home but nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside with no place to go
No place to go to dry her eyes
Broken inside

Her feelings she hides, her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind, she's fallen behind
And she can't find her place, she's losing her faith
She's fallen from grace, she's all over the place

She wants to go home but nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside with no place to go
No place to go to dry her eyes
Broken inside

She's lost inside, lost inside
She's lost inside, lost inside
★★★★★★

It's a true reflection of my present life.

If I fall,

★★★★★★

If I fall, will there be anyone to catch me?

Do I hope there will be a "someone"?
Or do I actually have a secret desire to just fall and feel the pain?

When smiling becomes a chore

★★★★★★

Sometimes, things don't happen the way you expect it to be.
And what can we do about it?

Other than feigning a smile on my lips, I'm at a loss.
If you have the time, pause and try to look through the smile.

If I had a choice, I'ld like to SCREAM

At least someone really knows me

★★★★★★

十二星座的悲伤情绪写在哪里?

笑容里 　
代表星座：白羊座 狮子座 　　

有谁不喜欢快乐的人，又有谁能轻易的认同他们的悲伤，记得梁静茹有句歌词，“我的声音在笑，泪在飙，电话那头的你可知道。”或者，羊儿和狮子，有的便是这样数不尽的经历，知道的扼腕，不知道的便根本不知道发生了什么。 　
想哭的时候，却莫名忽然笑了，有的时候，悲伤和失望不仅仅只有一种形式。他们如同站在地球的一个小角落，一次次地擦干泪水和汗水，只为了明天能够依旧有甜美的微笑，即使累过，疲惫过，放弃过，哭泣过，想离开过，逃避过，但最后依然还在原来的地方，像最虔诚的教徒，守护和敬仰着最美的梦。用笑容祭奠悲伤。

I lent you my body, You lent me your dream

★★★★★★

GATTACA :D ETHAN HAWKS :D JUDE LAW :D
Thought-provoking thriller...

Btw, this line in Wolverine is stuck in my head
"If I'm coming with you, I'm coming for blood."

Chem SPA's over.
I'm dog-tired.