Ces & Wenshit : thks :):)

today went for cip AGAIN
it's at east coast OBS campus which is ...
DAMN INACCESSIBLE
hate the location to the core
and the debriefing was just a drama
but i think the kids are cute :)

BT1 is coming up...
and i can swear that i'm gng to FLUNK it
cause nth seems to get in my brains :(
oh mans...
my future seems so bleak
like i dunno where i'm getting to in my life

Perhaps that's growing up
when all fantasies are cruelly destroyed
and the truth is in your face.
You can't avoid it, can't ignore it,
can't do anything about it.
So you can only surrender with your hands up,
trying your best to salvage what's left.
Yet, the world won't stop for you.
It will just keep spinning on its own pace,
with you feeling lost and giddy and hurt.
And you'll find slowly and painfully,
what had been taken away from you,
what you had lost to the process, "Growing Up".

this is nt an emo post anymore,
just some reflections on my current situation.
i love doing reflections cause it enables me to think
and this is the place to put some thinking into words.

seriously, i'm sorry to whoever i hurt this year due to my mood and stuff
you all know who you are
i was too judgemental, too easily agitated
i hope to salvage....
if you all would let me.

i'm a sinner, and i hope to be saved... ...